Patiently Waiting

Before The Flowers Could Bloom

I fell completely in love with him

but he left before the flowers could bloom        

he’ll never see the sun shine in my eyes

and he’ll never hear the moon

and the moon has a lot to say

if you listen in close

it’s okay that you didn’t stay

but I miss you the most

Sometimes I Won't

Sometimes I believe in myself

Sometimes I don’t

Sometimes I cry

Sometimes I won’t

What is it exactly

that keeps my heart aching,

my bones breaking

and stabbing up into my gut?

It is something I made up?

Is it the truth?

Something about my youth?

Or is it still you?

A Goddamned Shame That I Won't Forget

I already am

just a memory

and it’s a goddamned shame

that you’re still running round my brain

your name sifts through my blood

I need to flood you out

but I made a promise

that I won’t forget

Maybe I'll Wake Up

*Fiona Apple lyrics

Just some doodles that fell out of my head..

Worthy

The Breaking of the Mourning

*lyrics by the intensely incredible Ani Difranco 

Progression

Uncovering

The Beauty You Prefer

*lyrics by Ani Difranco: possibly the most kick ass woman to ever walk this earth

Cracked and Cracking

Unplanned

Get your dick out of me

and take your eyes away

I don’t need to you stand

I don’t need you to stay

I don’t sleep with ghosts

I hope you understand

This isn’t me, it’s you

Good luck with your band

I know you’ll miss me

and that you’ll think of me

as you enjoy your only hands

I hope this doesn’t hurt you

This poem was unplanned.

On Account Of My Body

You don’t deserve to derive pleasure on account of my body

Stop filling words with meanings that aren’t there

Just allow me to become disembodied

You want me here

for your pleasure

for your eyes

You pretend to lay with our hearts intertwined

while I wail and I cry

because now you’re afraid that without me 

you’ll die

alone

nobody to make moan

nobody to take home

alone

I Need Shine

I know I’ll make it

I know I’ll go on

I’ve done this dance before

and I’ve sang this song

but as my heart beats out of my chest

and I day dream about my death

I find false hope to comfort me

I needed it to sleep

and I really needed sleep

I’m not the beast I advertise myself to be

I’m nothing more than sheep

My heart, a raisin

The sun, 

the only one

to prove me wrong

and as I sing this song

it shines

Rotting Blue

My heart is rotting 

My lungs don’t quite work the same

I feel like I’m dying

but I’m glad you came

You changed me for the best, 

taught me to undress

I’m a complete fucking mess

but I wouldn’t change it for the world

Between your eyes

and your cries

and all that you mean to me

my mind is on fire

filled with the desire

to beg you to sit, to stay

please baby, just don’t go away

but if I love you as much

as I say I do

I’d rather you be happy

I’m used to being blue.

I Guess I'm Pretty Different Now

I'll Take Mine

Star Stuff

Run Away