Let's Not Be Shy

As I apologize for loving you so deeply so quickly

I wonder if I should also apologize for

breathing

and for the blood flowing through my veins

I didn’t choose any of it.

I’m sorry my daddy fucked me.

I’m sorry it made me unloveable.

It’s not my fault your simple smile

started a riot in my heart

It’s not my fault I felt like I was dying

every moment we were apart.

I’m sorry my love scared you,

it scared me too

but apparently I had more reason to be afraid

because here I am writing this

in my desolate room.

Every time I close my eyes

you’re either right next to me

or so so far away

My mind tries to fight the distance

dismally failing

I’m not all that surprised at my naivety 

I saw every dream I’ve ever had in your eyes

I saw a future I never deemed possible in the curves of your spine

I don’t know if the caves of my eyes will ever dry

My pulse is on the decline

My tears leave me blind

Every moment

every touch

enshrined in my mind

Baby, let’s just have one more night

Let’s not be shy.